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Archive for October 1st, 2007


Posted on: 1 October 2007

It’s a miserable day in London town today… positively raining cats and dogs and I have a list of errands to run as long as my arm. In the meantime waiting for the sky to dry I should have a sense of satisfaction that I have worked my way through a pile of ironing. I don’t. Maybe that’s because I’ve just had some new carpet laid (the only thing that ever gets laid in this house is new flooring) but I’m sure it’s not the colour I ordered… or maybe it was. Things look so different in the shop.

I know I haven’t been around much, although I’ve penned a few attempts at verse… nothing special. I won’t apologise for being MIA as I usually do, as I really want to do. Life has to be got on with. Blogging is a lovely distraction, but it is not a duty and duties come first. I wish I could say it was because I’d been whisked off my feet by my knight in shining armour, scaled the highest mountain, swam the Channel, written/painted/composed a masterpiece, appeared in loci, performed with Bon Jovi, won the lottery, ran the marathon, dined and danced with Vincent D’Onofrio or just had fun… none of that is true. The truth is not glamorous or romantic; it is a dash of wishful thinking with a bucketload of responsibility.

I admire anyone who follows their dream. Is it their destiny… is it written in their stars from the moment of their birth or conception? What dreams do we really hold? I don’t have a clue for myself, although I say I am a dreamer, a proper daydreamer. I can close my eyes and imagine… oh yes I can imagine, but it’s all pie in the sky. Reaching a decision on the basics is hard enough and then when I do, invariably I make the wrong one.

Want want want. We hear it all the time. I want, you want, he wants, she wants, we want, you want, they want. Is anyone truly happier when their material wants are met? Is that what dreams are really made of… owning the latest must have appliances, i-thingys, cars, holidays, fashions? Are our dreams a sense of ‘want’ too, or are they safe because they are just dreams, reverie, whimsical vagaries when we allow our minds to wonder and wander? Or are our dreams lifetime ambitions that we strive to achieve and will they satisfy us when they’re reached?

I am not saying dreams and wants are the same thing, or a bad thing. I don’t see it written anywhere ‘thou must be happy all the time’ but to find true happiness I guess we have to dig deep into ourselves and be satisfied with what we see and who we are. If not, only we can change ourselves and change our wants and dreams accordingly. A fundamental element of happiness relates to our hearts and souls, the people we are, the spiritual, the nonmaterial part of us. Whether one follows a faith or not, we all have a heart and soul and conscience that guides us.

On the most part we are ordinary people with ordinary lives… the fantasy dreams of our imagination that briefly take us away from it all are welcome diversions, pure entertainment. The dreams of hope and aspiration keep us moving forward, kick us from complacency and give us the drive to reach goals… they don’t have to be world newsbreaking goals, but personal small goals.


Life changing dreams is something else. That takes guts and belief… the guts and belief you can succeed, the guts and belief that if you don’t, it doesn’t matter. No regrets because you tried your best; the regret would have been not following your dream and giving it your best shot.

Yes, I admire people who know their dreams and pursue them; see them through. Would I have the guts to follow mine if I knew what they were? I don’t know… I truthfully don’t know.


Do you?


You see things; and you say, “Why?” But I dream things that never were; and I say, “Why not?” ~ George Bernard Shaw

If a little dreaming is dangerous, the cure for it is not to dream less but to dream more, to dream all the time ~ Marcel Proust

There is nothing like a dream to create the future ~ Victor Hugo

Without leaps of imagination, or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning ~ Gloria Steinham

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe ~ Anatole France

Dreams are necessary to life ~ Anais Nin

It lies not in our power to love or hate,

For will in us is overruled by fate.

When two are stripped, long ere the course begin,

We wish that one should love, the other win;

And one especially do we affect

Of two gold ingots, like in each respect:

The reason no man knows, let it suffice,

What we behold is censured by our eyes.

Where both deliberate, the love is slight:

Who ever loved, that loved not at first sight?

the loves of my life

at the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet ~~~ plato

thank you…

... to everyone whose pictures and videos I have borrowed; if anyone would like theirs to be removed, please tell me and I shall be happy to do so

all words here are mine ~ I’ll tell you when they’re not!

from long ago

in case I forget what day of the week it is

October 2007